Beautifully Human

The mind stays active long after sleep.

I grew up with the notion that ambition is admirable and that true success towards a fulfilling life was always driven by ambition. That true purpose and the pursuit of life's ultimate goals revolved around one's relation towards ambition.

I have to say that idea can lead many into a false calling. Desire and ambition can only lead one so far and without a clear sense of purpose and the passion the can only fuel that inner fire, desire can only go so deep beneath the surface. It is extremely necessary for the psyche and spirit to assess self purpose.

with that being stated, I know that my avenue in this crazy thing we call life is not just to become a story teller,  but to become a teacher of some sort. I am not referring to chalk board and glasses type of fellow, but some what of a leader or consultant. I want to help people find their own purpose some way, some how. My own experience and credentials would deem me the last person that is qualified in any way to counsel people with their lives, but I know that my talents held within my words on a page can somehow cultivate people's way of thinking into understanding, perhaps life.

Someone very special to me described my way of expression as a utilization of a constant form of analogy, continuously using some point of reference to express my inner thoughts. I always understood this method as a quick and simple way to relate to people and to connect to people on a visual spectrum. I suppose that my need to relate aspects of life into a "story" has always been my path to connect with understanding life and I suspect to why I've loved great storytelling. 

I would not boast myself as a particularly religious man, as my path from God has reached a bit of the outer reaches, but I could not help but coorrelate my desire to express my thoughts and beliefs in short form analogies to how Christ tought about his kingdom of love through parables. I believe that it is a fundamental quality of being human that we as a species relate towards stories and that teaching methods revolving around this aspect are the most impactful. 

Now, in no way shape or form am I comparing myself to be Jesus or that my ultimate purpose in life is to be "Christ-like" (that, my friends, is a discussion for another blog) but what I am trying to say is that my relationship with storytelling goes towards the most primitive level. I seek to teach others in the hopes that they walk away having at least thought about some aspect of their own lives differently. 

With the launch of our video production website, Bernal Pictures, I only ask that everyone that may enter our domain come with an open mind and heart, because we are in the business to not just entertain but to teach an aspect of ourselves that we can only describe as beautifully human.

If You Can't Stand The Heat

There have been several instances where my lack of direction have plagued my own mental health. I try to continue to stay positive in certain moments, but I can't help but focus in on my failures and how my progress in life is not necessarily where I envisioned myself to be.

In less than a month, I will be turning 30. Without a steady job, my own home, and my own family, I can't help but imagine what rock bottom would be like. Now, declaring that my life is at a rock bottom is a bit of an overstatement, for there are plenty of other individuals in this world that are hurting with much more urgent matters.

I am blessed to have the support of loving family and friends that will be there for me at a moments notice. However, to examine to say that my current circumstances in life as a turning point would be accurate in the sense that I have found a new personal bottom. They say you must truly strip away all that was once your former self in order to manifest into something better. I can say first hand that I hope that I am at that point and to say that I am mentally drained would not describe the immense pressures I have to hurtle past time and time again.

As an aspiring writer, I understand that one must experience life in all various aspects and that the older we get, the better our craft becomes to articulating the pain and struggle. The ups and downs of life are but various different flavors to a pallet than will soon prepare a meal to remember. I just hope that I am prepared to stand the heat to stay in the kitchen.

Fight or Flight

For those who have been reading my page, there may already be a sense of confusion. I started this blog without a clear understanding of what I wanted to achieve. Perhaps I wanted an account for the upcoming events in this transitional period of my life, or maybe a niche to promote my written works or creative art. Whatever the reason, my current progress has been a bit stunted do to immense pressures from other aspects of my life, one of which being the pursuit of a passion project of mine.

Thus far, my blog has been on the abstract and that all written entries have been more of an abstract illustration of my written process, as well as my thoughts and beliefs. My clarity up to this point of my own life has always been murky, lost under a fog of doubt and insecurity. My recent experiences have given me that much desired clarity, only found under a trial-by-fire period.

Allow me to bestow that clarity upon you:

My name is Alejandro Bernal and I have always understood myself as an avid storyteller. Growing up, I always had an imagination that wished desperately to manifest itself into my own reality. Without much of an understanding as to how to do this, my own solace was to imagine myself and my own characters existing within the frame of television and film. I knew that my passion and my purpose was to drive this energy into the written form, developing worlds and characters that could perhaps one day exist on screen.

In recent weeks since beginning this blog, I decided to make that leap into the unknown and pursue a career towards professional screenwriting and entertainment. A scary decision for any, my decision to literally give up job and home for this endeavor has become something of a crucible, as certain aspects of the journey have not panned out the way I had originally envisioned.

This is not to say that I regret any of the past decisions that led me to this point. In fact, I am even more vindictive towards this path, in which if it were not for the tremendous circumstances that would call upon my primal "fight or flight" mechanism, I would not be the man that stands before you today, confident in the power that only lies from within.

To those who reads these words, I say to you now that fear of failure cannot be the definitive factor in your course of life. Judgement, instinct, and ambition are at its finest when one is painted in a corner, when there is absolutely no form of escape except to move forward. Live life with no regrets and its true gifts will reveal themselves upon you, for our own purpose is to strive for the perfection of a life that others would define as a masterpiece.

Stay vigilante

A distance with no end 
A tunnel with no light
A war with no flag
Standing at an edge of a great field
a chaos of war in the horizon
I look towards a strength that can only be described by evolution
My higher mind & being knows what to do
But it is a matter of understanding
and listening to see the direction.
Follow the field into an unknown
Confident in my own safety that will lead me to the righteous path
Harden your spirit from external agents that wish your demise
The spear stands tall in the wind
Ready for the fight of its life